Deeply Buried, Hideous Things I Had Done..

2010-11-18T17:24:00.002+08:00

Hello world!

Today

Mood: FML; smile

Hari Raya Aidiladha.

2010-11-10T16:50:00.002+08:00

Conversation with 7 years old niece:
Me: Izyan, lau yan pegi overseas yan nak beli kan Cik Atee ape?

Izyan: Errm.. (thinking).. Cik Atee nak ape?

Me: Ermmmm.. Cik Atee nak matair Mat salleh.

Izyan: (Eyes goes big) HARAM!

Me: LOL

2010-11-02T20:44:00.002+08:00

Hardly i ever want to blog about work as i don't practice bringing my outside problems into my home. But imagine if everyday without fail having to face 70% of nasty creatures & trouble makers vs the remaining angels that eventually made our day. I still have 2 years 5 months to learn and gain.

I'm done packing my toiletries.

BF's, it'll be exactly ONE month from now.

So start packing!

2010-11-01T20:07:00.002+08:00

Miss my absence?? Please do. :)

Cuz i miss sparing my time pouring my thoughts too.

It was supposed to be another mundane Monday

until i had to attend an hour talk about IV safety for patients and clinicians.

As expected i am surrounded by bunch of the 'blue' uniforms.

The feeling was sucks, really, lost, as i don't even understand why am i stuck there at the very first place,

i wasn't even very sure if i should be there.

Well, that was what exactly i told my nurse manager who sat beside me.

lol.

Favouritism occurs everywhere.

& it does happen in the place i work.

Being the youngest staff it is very very important to stay humble.

i don't want to know how serious is she when it comes to what she said,

"I've found my ancestor."

in my heart; I hope that's not for real.

2010-02-20T16:36:00.004+08:00

Let this be the last post here..

2010-02-02T23:37:00.002+08:00

"Get me OUT from this troubles"

2010-01-30T13:05:00.003+08:00

First 30 days of 2010 don't seems to be a good start for this year..

Reason being lotsa unwanted things happened within this short 30 days..

i have facebook stalker, someone else has been using my pictures to create false identity at Tagged, CBR 400 was involved in a mini accident, my samsung omnia pro & his Sony Eric were stolen,

& currently i am down with viral infection..

As expected nausea & vomiting plus diarrhea presents...

i have not had any meals since yesterday morning..

anything that i took orally including h20 with meds, will end up as vomitus..

loss of appetite=loss of weight..

supposedly, i should be doing my last round of nights, yesterday and later tonight..

i took urgent leave this morning as i looked more sick than my patient does..

& it cost me over hundred bucks to consult the 24 hours doctor..

& the most upsetting part, i'm aware that i have to do make up on my day off..

having such worries at this point of situation was a big issues to him,

i gained scolding and got fucked for that.. heh! served me right!

2010-01-26T20:56:00.002+08:00

Rehab2, you made me abandoned my loved ones, and for that reason i can't wait to leave you in 4 weeks time...

Bestfriends, cousins, classmates i terribly miss you all... i really do..

"wahai insan yang disana.. aku disini tetap akan menunggu."

*cinta..ini takdir kita*

2010-01-13T13:46:00.002+08:00

The alternate shifts is making my body aching..

Thank you to the tight schedule & the journey to and fro, i have lesser time at home surfing..

& i hate to believe that i am doing my nights with someone who loves to order around..

So patients please behaves!

2010-01-07T21:09:00.004+08:00

Behind those smiles could hide a dagger ready to plunge..

I'm still standing single, catching one may not be tough but getting the right one is the problem here..

damn girl, i'm such a trouble!

hee

2009-12-31T20:57:00.003+08:00

I've got few hours before next year..

Happy advance 2010!

Shit im sick!

Time to zZz!!

Happy advance 24th birthday New year bOy!

2009-12-02T01:12:00.002+08:00

I don't intend to act this way..

I am sorry i failed to remain the same..

i've changed..

2009-11-07T12:49:00.009+08:00

Jennifer's Body @ Marina Square 7D- Gerry's Posting..

apek..amaah we provide the services you need..No need further explaination, right?

This is it- Michael Jackson Show.. Like Rosy said, I'm more addicted to shop..Toa payoh NHF Posting

Lovin' the office hour job & house visiting Nursing services..

(work done by lunch time)

shuddup yatee..

Miss cheeky getting chubby

2009-10-25T17:55:00.009+08:00

2009-10-25T16:30:00.012+08:00

Cik kamal's Crib

Punggol Open House's Friday Night at Cik Wahidah's Place

2009-10-20T18:13:00.002+08:00

its been awhile i hide this feeling..

my confession: God.. i miss this man that you once blessed me with.

ya allah..keep me going..

2009-10-17T01:07:00.006+08:00

2009-10-16T15:14:00.007+08:00

2009-10-16T14:38:00.007+08:00

Photo's taken during our night walk..

Locations: Bedok, Bukit Panjang, Kampung wak hassan(half way), Sembawang park, Changi Village, OCH(half way there), Downtown East, Pasir Ris Park, Mount Faber, Labadoor Park..

2009-10-04T20:17:00.009+08:00

The subsequent Raya visiting..

2009-10-03T13:16:00.005+08:00

What's new??

Well i just completed my one week posting in E.D..

Like Aron's said we were there for a sight-seeing & an extra pairs of helping hand..

Exhausted, stressful environment definitely, but fun!

i had the opportunity to perform chest compression on real collapse patient during the resuscitation,

last office (packaging the dead body), had a tour in the ambulance itself, & participated in the standby procedure (Welcoming the arrival of the ambulance & patient)..

All thanx to Aaron for making his time for us (although his not supposed to be there) ..

There's always a first time for everything & that was my FIRST time...

Even it was a short 5 days stay i gain alot, seen alot and its worth it..

Time for Raya visiting again!!

I may found a new bestfriend but that does not mean i have forgotten my other two..

Besties Ika & Aidil i do miss you!

& i still cant stop missing sweet too..

2009-09-27T02:37:00.011+08:00

2009-09-24T15:22:00.013+08:00

Hari Raya lagi.... Best kan! More in FB ok!

Hari Raya Day One!

Shot taken by our very own lil paparazzi..

2009-09-19T02:27:00.007+08:00

12am supper at mac!She's my favourite One*Giggle*Makcik Keropok!New bed,Sofa,wardrobe & furnitures!! So unglam!!!

2009-09-16T21:30:00.019+08:00

Please do not misunderstood the friendship & closeness between us..

2009-09-14T02:58:00.007+08:00

2009-09-13T00:42:00.010+08:00

Bedok South Primary khakis..

2009-09-10T00:43:00.002+08:00

Both are my friends..

No matter what happens between us..

But somehow i felt that the rightful person to be blame is myself..

i should have not gave in to Aidil's desire..

& if only i had not been soo nice to him i might save a heart from breaking..

Sometimes i feel..

my efforts are not appreciated but instead it is misused..

So much of trusting you, trying to make you happy once again but is this what i'm suppose to get in return..

who am i to question you, what's my right to expect the best from you..

I am no one in your eyes to be exact..

But i still want to Thank you..

Siblings do fight..

Of course..

but i will want to be the last person to interfere, i Swear..

please exclude me in this issues..

i was browsing through the albums in my desktop..

& i suddenly realised something is amissed..

& guess what, i missed my subgroup one & the girls as well..

2009-09-05T15:35:00.012+08:00

2009-09-04T01:24:00.004+08:00

I found myself

crying in silence,

controlling my anger

hiding my frustration

But no one knows..

& it was months of endurance, torment, and witholding tears..

I had lost my pillar of strength, the officer that i used to launch my complains to &

the one i used and still love..

But pardon me for not showing those emotions that are

expected to be seen in a broken-hearted person..

Allah gifted me with this amazing courage

to keep me continuously going and overcome sorrows

which are meant to be part of the journey..

After all i've been through, he made me realised life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, but they're supposed to help you discover who you are..

& for that imma new person today..

i give in more and demand less

i drop my ego to zero

i smile even if it hurts

i cry behind close doors

basically i live my life simple & happy 24/7

2009-09-01T12:59:00.018+08:00

Vandalism is legal

4 am changi Airport

UP 3D!

Hagen Daaz at Jurong Point

Lunch with

Everybody looked so happy cos it was our last day of school!

2009-08-11T15:46:00.010+08:00

Again2 another shopping trip!!!

Saturday with irMan & friends!

Out to to town with bestie for another shopping spree..

Starting with Far east, ION orchard, Wisma atria & One night at Changi Airport ..

From popeye to TCC

2009-08-08T11:46:00.011+08:00

Dinner With members of the crazy society at Sakura Int' located at Clementi

so if there are such crazy events again please don't hesitate to call us.. My supporters! With my 2 designers

2009-08-02T21:42:00.004+08:00

Temporary Stress-free,

shopping trip with rosyam..

Some Random pictures

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2009-08-02T16:05:00.009+08:00

Harman's Family gathering was held last sunday at Aloha Changi Chalet..

it was another episodes of laughter & a bonding session for us..

As you scroll down you would see how hillarious Harman's family can be..

Being cranky & bonkers now runs in the blood..

2009-07-11T09:56:00.029+08:00

God has been fair enough to me..

He blessed me with this people in exchange of the loss..

& each break up had taught me a great lesson, i dont blame nor mad at those who left me,

i believed it had been written in my life, that such things occurs are meant to

make me realise happiness dont last..

So appreciate & be thankful to Allah for every single thing that are meant for you..

Im stronger, tougher and a real fighter than before..

& to sacrifice the love i had & let go doesnt mean i lose..

i won't die by giving in to your want..

here are some randomly choosen picture ..

Refer to FB for more alright!

They can never fail to enter frame

Our final Masterpiece
A dinner with Gladyn On Wednesday night at town

Our FYP Presentation day..

We chose to wear an outfit that we feel most comfortable with..

Well that's Subgroup One trade mark ( The Cant be bothered Group)KFC for Dinner

Saturday with sweeties,

Watching Transformers I can't wait to go back to the beach!

Glad to know that there are someone who shares our sadness..

He was Azman ex colleague,

someone whom i never met

but was willing to share advices to keep me going..

Unlike some people, they are just being a BUSYBODY.. BiBi House

Our New HairDo

Video-shOoting Process..

12 midnight supper at Simpang Bedok & up to 4am chit-chat-ing at Pasir Ris beach while waiting for Dil's court hearing..

Nurul & me were having our dinner at Pizza hut & one of his colleage passed a piece of folded paper to me..

*giggle*- zaman Biler ehk???

Ooh cuzzy & me went to catch a movie too.. My past ghost gf..

At J.Co.. ladies Late Night Meet up

From Geylang to Arab street & Marina!

2009-06-19T23:01:00.003+08:00

A wedding garden is an ideal concept..

Take me to the mOvie & shopping will be a great help!!!

Its exactly 2 weeks..

Despites all the miles between us right now, I still think about the way it was in the beginning...

I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me..

& it is exactly 1 week from today,

its been 2 years since he said Goodbye & never say hello again..

"Tears are the silent language of grief"

NR0713 BBQ

Nothing about you i will ever forget

2009-06-16T16:15:00.004+08:00

readers go to ika's bloggy for this entry..

Pasir Ris Beach!

We had a "Walking towards the past", Big Walked subsequently lost our way..

giggle

the silly girls..

the pain I often feel is caused by the absence of you.

I know when I leave, the distance will keep us apart. But distance,

no matter how far, can't change these feelings in my heart.

& memory is a golden chain that binds us together until we meet again.

Love is alive when it has time. It is dying when it's hurried. It is dead when it cannot wait.

i badly need another hOliday away from you

2009-06-15T01:48:00.002+08:00

when the heart managed to get control of the mind..

subconsciously, i almost lost all the gifts from God..

I am such a ungrateful soul..

2009-06-12T23:32:00.005+08:00

Thurdays Nite- we headed down to D' Cathay to watch " Drag me to hell"

Wednesday- 7km cycling trip at Changi Beach Monday- National Education.. (a very last minute preparation) sshh..Finally..

The RED tag

Im having tachycardia..

Tears helps to ease the pain...

You accused me, you neglected me, and you expect me to be how we used to be.. You have gone too much Mr Officer..

2009-06-07T15:55:00.005+08:00

Love puts the fun in together, the sad in apart, and the joy in a heart

I spent my date with him and insyirah

watching night at museum 2 & monster vs alien 3D at Vivo & TM respectively..

i recently received a love message,

and had someone to look after my farms and Restaurant in FB..

that's very sweet of you

Thank You..

As Extract from the above

Hey dear i try to lodge in to RC but unable to, so i send msg kt sini ohk...

hope u dun mind...

so at ur RC, i da bring it to lvl 8...

collect money for u so tat u cn buy stuff for ur RC...

wat u need to do is to buy table n chair as ur popularity kt RC da go up up... hee..

n at lvl 8 u need, NEED to buy toilet tau..

i send those deco kt ur entrance using my coins...

its a "free" gift from me for ur RC...

Farm...as for ur farm i da plow corns and send u trees to u(which i da place at ur farm)

wen u come back e corn da le harvest,

i will help u send it and u cn use the money to plow new seeds ohk..

my advice is to plow corn as for now corns hold e higher price...

aite...jus to inform u i jaga ur farm wiv care love n sweetness tau...

thats all for the game....

as for us,

i reali mish u syg..

infact thx alot for active e auto roam....

dpt jgk i kol u n sms u.. lau tk, le jadi gila i mcm u ge KL...

i tnk sumthg mcm nie happened at the ryte tym...

this to test how much u mean to me dear..

i hope this holiday show u tat how important we meant to each other....

even it jus for a short tym aje tat u went for holiday...

Dear, i just want to tell you tat i reali mish you dear...

I love u, sky is e limit... thx for loving me syg.... MuackzzzZZZzz...

2009-06-07T14:25:00.018+08:00

I went for a 3 days 2 nights vacation to Malacca with the Families..

Below are all the pictures taken, however they are uncomplete,

i have another memory card to upload..

You may not seen a completed version here,

cos i'm only uploading those pictures with my face in it.. hee

but it seems like almost 3/4 of the pictures has my face in it..

*giggle*

i begin with our journey to Puteri Gunung Ledang

we are still at the bottom of the waterfallReady to climb up the MountainWe were all bare footed!

ooh yes its oOuch!!Pardon my BROTHER-IN-LAW, he may be like that but his still a man,

as proven he had produce 3 young kids aged 5-8...

;pThe most hillarious photo among all

The first few to reached the top..

surpirising the kids tagged along.. & their stamina are amazingMeet the "PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG"Lastly, Pandan City....

2nd Day

The 1st Day

2009-06-06T11:50:00.007+08:00

i have hundreds of photos that i badly wanted to upload..

It was our Video-shooting last wedesday, the girls are all dressed up in dresses..

Presenting you My gorgeous Nurses.. NR0713 the best 7 craziest, hippies members, Subgroup 1Lunch at Fish & chick with my favourite 4
want more visit Fadz blogspot..
Graduation ceremony involvement

2009-05-17T17:16:00.005+08:00

Less words for nOw..

still hoping to be fully recovered..

Another memories added;

we made it to the final & the most intensive year..

2009-04-26T11:14:00.015+08:00

here's my Quick, junk entry cos im down with stOmach flu for the second time..

Muhammad Irfan Izdhihar turned 5!

Happy scrubbing Ladies!

2009-04-22T20:23:00.015+08:00

Again, i won't be able to blog as frequent as i used to; basically i'm back to school..

Infact it will be a hectic semester as 2 semesters modules are combined to one..

Well,here are some of the photos captured during our 3 days 2 nights in Kuala Lumpur..

i had a very unforgetable trip there as these guys never failed to make me stop laughing.. Especially hafiz, he and his funny actions, Mat but a cute joker..

Yesterday Boifey and myself went to catch 17 Again at Bugis ..

Zac Efron, definitely looked really good in the black leather sweater, it caught my eyes but not my heart..

My late night supper..

Taken from the revolving Federal's hotel restaurant

p/s: there's nothin much to see actually He preferred siting next to the driversee how much we shopped! while waiting for our bus coach to arrive

we left him to guard our bag while we went to the 7-11 store which was just at the next building

2009-04-13T13:38:00.004+08:00

Tampines One is now officially opened to public!-

i'm aware of the JLS at EXPO, yes2 i do.. definitely..

& I've been to the sale twice..

After 9 long days we had not seen each other..

Last Saturday after i had a short trip to JLS and a dinner with ika,

i made my very first time fetching him from work at Boon Lay..

& we spent another wonderful night together..

But our night does not end there,

we spent the rest of the next day up till 1500 hrs at my place spending time with the kids..

After which i had another shopping session with my family..

Old tiMe balloon making creation

2009-04-10T11:46:00.017+08:00

Those pictures below completes my words..

2009-04-05T12:45:00.011+08:00

Our Saturday shOpping fever cOntinued up till midniGht..

we went to Grand Hyatt for the biG sale, dined-in at Pasta Mania,

15 mins window shOpping at Far East,

pick & pay session at Bugis JuctiOn & Bugis street, but still not satisfied..

So we walked all the way to Raffles city, and had a good tOur from there to Marina square..

Lastly, To JP2 24 hours NTUC Fairprice.. ;p

I bet nO one would like to jOin us with our shOpping marathon..

Last night(infact this mOrning) was my very first time seeing him in his uniform..

Omg hubby u truly looked soo gOod in that..

Im falling in lOve with the same man again..

* giggle*

2009-04-05T12:08:00.011+08:00

First of all, i thank God cOs its over..

But I will missed wOrking with the staffs there definitely..

This are my due ramdOmly chOosen pix..

happy Browsing!!

Insyirah 6th Mini bOobsday party
playing too hard heh Crying for help now sound useless kids..

*giggle*

His still the king of the **** @ Victory for breakfast Taken after wOrk.. shOrt sight-seeing session TTSH fire drill

2009-03-29T13:33:00.002+08:00

i don't even know where to start..

I am sure both of us needs an explanation here..

But im sorry, i have nothing much to say now..

Cos i have been repeating myself the same things right from the start..

You neglected me my dear although you say you won't and you dont.

Perhaps you are sick and tired of babysit me..

I dont feel what you used to make me feel..

Im aware of where i stand..

So im leaving

2009-03-23T19:57:00.002+08:00

i have a confession to make

i felt something heavy deep down inside..

i do not know if i should share this or hide

i wanted to tell him but i know he wont like..

therefore i only have you to bail me out from this pain..

its driving me insane..

it's like the end of through road for me, i cant reverse back to those days..

i felt dead

although i knew that I am capable..

But im still unsure how strong this strength can last..

dear God, this soul refused to cry, but the tears keep pouring down

its hurting me..

2009-03-21T12:32:00.009+08:00

Im serving my three-weeks Medical pOsting..

Ten days left, follOwed by tWo weeks vacation &

we will have our three-days, twO-nites hOliday trip to K.L right sweet??- i can't wait!!

Disney On Ice..

2009-03-20T20:39:00.003+08:00

Tonight our tears become one, my tears blend with yours & your pain now mine..

when yOur action aren’t enough, & your words cant explains your feeling...

All i need was love, no conditions, with a bit of demand but simplicity..

Sigh, i cant stand this, it seems constantly toying with my mind = complications hubbie

"When I fall in love,I want to be with him always..

In happiness, to smile with him,and be the one to hug him near.

In sadness,to cry with him,and let him to be the one to dry my tears.

I will spend my every waking and sleeping moments with him and catch each moment in its eternally lovely form..

I will miss him the very moment I say 'goodbye'and my heart will yearn for the very moment we say ‘hello.

Because of you all my old pains seem lost and faded away and now Im strong and brave once again."

Now, is this too much bie or is it uneccesary??

Why does my heart grow doubtful dear?

It is tense and beating, full of fear.

Although I keep with me with your everlasting love..

p/s:

I'll belong to you till the very end,and you will forever stay as my lover and friend.

It has been so good like this from the start,so darling please, trust me with your heart.

No matter what,

i love you

2009-03-11T20:13:00.007+08:00

Hey im back bloggy with another updates!

Poor me i am down with flu for like several days.. So i cooped myself up at home..

It is such a waste to get sick during schOol vacation..

But as for today, it was an unplanned short-time date with my lover boy,

since he is working in the night shift later..

Went with cab, back with cab too.. Tsk!

I am aware imma very demanding daughter and girlfriend..

I am grateful that this people like you tries to meet my expectation without any return....

I am sorry, i am truly sorry for asking too much of your attention, love or everything..

i really regretted for having such feeling towards you..

Dear, im fortunate to have you now & hopefully forever, i'm glad that all yOur ex left yOu and they dont make a come back..

You simply the man that i need, you have all those good qualities that all girls dream of..

that same goes to my mom , im sure she's gonna love my man as much as i do..

Taken today at an old school playground somewhere around Bukit BatokWe managed to catch Marley & me at Westmall i wonder if you people have ever noticed this..

How many times does we had our lunch or dinner at a decent foodcourt for the past 6 months??

Well fyi this is the 3rd one..
Happy 6 months darl..
Auntie & niece outing last Sunday..i should thank her for occupying my 2 pathetic days; had a very enjOyable moments with her..
Making Cocktails Ice jelly, Baking chocolate cakes together and Brownies for sweets ;p
Like other peOples, we do watched latest mOvies in town..
Went over to PS to watch this gruesome story, & felt extremely regretted watching it..
This movie is totally not my cup of tea..
I hate watching violence and grisly movies, i had never enjoyed watchin them..
They should just change from M18 to 22..
So i could have a reason not to watch it..
;p
I missed thOse kids!
toodles!

2009-03-04T14:27:00.006+08:00

The birthday girl, dearest cuzzen, & gOssip khakis, including me..

went to Watch "He's just not into you" last night..

Thanx to Nurul for riding me hOme..

& we both had a shOrt gOssiping session at my place til bOut 1am

before she made her move to meet her lepak mates..

2009-03-02T15:19:00.003+08:00

It's her 21st burfday tommoorrow!

2009-02-27T20:37:00.006+08:00

R.A.N.D.O.M

p/s: A belated burfday's gift frOm Rosy & Gang
Thank you darls!

2009-02-27T11:42:00.002+08:00

I went for an accidental shopping trip with ika yesterday..

& another browse & click shOpping session a few minutes ago..

wooohoo.. $$$ GST da masok- a message received from ika this morning

2009-02-14T19:05:00.002+08:00

I received the GST offset package..

it's nice to be twenty-one

my Families are enjoying bbq-ing at Changi beach while i have to stay at home mugging fOr Monday paper..

Going to sleepover at Kak Ayu hOuse again tonite..

2009-02-10T14:43:00.004+08:00

My february nine is extraordinary special..

Thank q sweet.. i lov you